• pregnancy,  writing life

    Not Yet

    The days blur together like fog and clouds melding at the horizon. The unknown lurking in their white shadow brings me curiosity and apprehension. On the other side of this white fog is my new life, shadowy and enticing, beckoning me forward. Yet as I enter the misty wisps I can see nothing but the here and now. Shadows of babies and joyous laughter ping the air calling me like a siren deeper into the unknown. I am ready, yet the other side stays elusive. Heavy with the new life in my womb, I make my way as tendrils of sugar mist tangle and twist around my arms and legs.…

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    Week 38 – Where’s My Baby??

    Observations from the deck of the Third Trimester: I can eat twice as much as I did non-pregnant without gaining a pound.(Where does it all go? I say, hormones. They must be like little blow torches to caloric intake.) My son’s head is literally in my crotch. Which makes me wonder in the miracles of nature, that when I squat he doesn’t just fall out.  Mood swings as strong and far reaching as the Earth’s rotation around the sun. Not a single Braxton-Hick or false labor contraction despite the “super soft cervix” that I’m sporting. Not a single one. Which makes me wonder if we’re going to slow play this…

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    It’s Getting Hot in Here

    Me ready to pop. Kidding, this was taken 3 weeks ago, far from popping. We’ve made it. We’re in the home stretch now. Night sweats, awkward sitting, heavy breathing, insomnia, stretch marks, mood swings, squashed bladder and general inability to think. Now we wait. The waiting is the hard part. For a first time mom, waiting for labor is like a new soldier waiting for deployment notification. You’re about to embark on your first life changing event, but you don’t know when that is. You have a window in which you know it’ll happen but no exact time. Labor is this mythical beast in the room. This monstrosity that has…